January 2011
“Hold me, hold me…”
“If I were to…”
“I...”
Ain't it a shame to be so young and insane?
I miss you everyday, and I hate it. Sometimes, I wish we could go back to when everything was just so black and white, and you had your mind set on us being just friends. I don’t really know what would be worse at this point. This just hurts.
I think I’ve been on Facebook for the past 3 hours. Hmph. I actually can’t wait for classes to start, I want to start feeling productive again.
I keep starting these stupid things and never posting them. I feel like I’m just too negative but I can’t help it. I hate driving home and not even wanting to actually go into my own house, I’m so sick of my mother I can’t even stand it. She’s literally insane. I just want to get back to school but I don’t even know what this semester is going to hold for me,...
Ordered a laptop today. Thank gahhhhdddd. Everything is just falling into place this week, and as bittersweet as some of it is… I really couldn’t be happier about it.
Redoing my room starting tomorrow, the old posters and old pictures are starting to make me sick. I’m being all metaphorical and shit and tearing down what used to be me, because I’m sick of being reminded of it.
I’m so sick of crying. I’m so sick of having unhealthy relationships, with so many people in my life.
I should feel relieved that this is over but it just hurts. I want to tell you I already miss you and that I don’t want to end things like this, but I know we’ll just end up right back where we were. We both want different things, and we knew this from the beginning…...